Wednesday, April 28, 2010
An Explanation for My Silence
I know that we aren't the only family feeling the pinch and uncertainties. We are better off than most because we know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Michael will be starting work as soon as his clearance is approved. How long will that take? A few weeks, a month or two...we don't know. If we had some answers to our many logistical questions, that would help a lot with the stress levels.
I have missed the hope of my garden this year. Planting a garden for me is more than harvesting food. It is the anticipation of what will grow in just a few weeks. It represents hope as well as beauty. My garden has always been my sanctuary and quiet place. Kids don't usually follow me down to the garden because they know I will put them to work. The garden also brings delight to the taste buds. My broccoli and cabbage and lettuces are all doing well. I just don't know if we will be here to enjoy much of their production. I have put a halt on other garden plans for this summer. I can't bear the thought of doing all of the work and not having hope that we will be here to enjoy it.
I never want to be a downer for people who come here to read. I have spent my whole life encouraging others. I believe that has been a gift given to me from the Lord. It is very unnatural for me to complain or wallow in self pity. One of my mottoes in life is "Take your lemons and make some lemon aide." Some days that is easier than others. But for today, that is exactly what I plan on doing.
grace and peace,